Boys will be boys

hey there, guy i met at a bar.. 

you're cute, my happy friends even likes you

we were looking at you waiting for you to get a little tipsy 

also them to get a little tipsy to have that courage to ask for your name 

but we ended up kissing and you asked for my number  

I wasn't really expecting that you will text me 

I was hoping that you will 

A few days after I received a message from an unsaved number 

I was surprised and a little giddy

Ever since then you have been trying to get into my pants 

... lemme just leave it like this here.... 

that effect of the stars

Stop chasing stars i told myself last night, they hardly leave the skies up above you.. they are meant for you to look up, stare and admire their beauty, there's a reason why you will never reach them, they do however sometimes fall, shoot down on targets that caught their attentions but never ever towards where you are standing, they will just let you look and awe in their beauty and even will let you make a wish but that wish can never be that you can catch them.

There's a reason why placements were created, to ensure order, each was classified to their own accord and purpose. We tend to mess with the order of things, experimenting if we can get out and break the norm but most of the time we end up getting hurt.. just like chasing the stars, they're all sparkly and pretty up there and we would dream of reaching up and getting them but end up being lost somewhere unfamiliar even though we have painstakenly studied everything we thought we need to know. Whenever they fall down as a beautiful shooting star we can't go ahead and catch them while they're still shinning, rushing, shooting down towards their destination .. we will end up getting burned. All we can do is wait for them to cool down and lose their glowing beauty.. in the end, even if they lost their glow and life and turned into a rock a piece of what they have allowed to share, we still choose to keep it, treasure it as if it was still glowing and love it with all our heart.. ouch

Hello I'm back

It's been a while since I last created an entry on this blog.. to be honest I only created a blog way back 2004 because I dated someone who's into blogging and also met a friend who loves to write. But enough explaining why I have this.. what's important is the dramaqueen is back with I hope more interesting stuff to yak online.

Just a quick run through on what I did when I stopped yakking through writing online ..

I dunno if I was still with the company I was with when I started writing here and when I made my last known entry here but after that I've been with 2 different companies after that then moved to Singapore for 3 years.

I made new friends, sealed a few old bonds with people I've known for a long time, tried to burn bridges with those that I can't have a positive and progressive relationship with.  I fell in and out badly of love or what I thought was love. I am more confident now of who I am, insecurities are still there it will never go away but I have acquired a new skill on how to handle it well, those pretentions have been converted to dreams and goals that soon I will achieve.

Tonight as I write this entry, I made a realization that it is never too late to make life we have always pictured ourselves to be living in. Goodnight peeps!

been awhile ..hahaha

i fell in and out of love then in again and you're still here.. lavet!

metaphor...talkin'

ubos na yung ink ng pen na hiniram ko sayo... meaning kung na giging ging pa din ako sayo kalokohan na yun.. kasi dapat ubos na din ang pasensya ko sayo dapat.. persona non grata ka na dapat... uhm i guess oo... =)

sa wakas

na open ko din ang blog spot ... hehehehe pano wala nito sa ofc naka block. anyway, alot of things happend to me since my last entry here. i have a new job, new company, new faces and again back to drinking. i dont really like my work though am not really that pagod or harrassed with what am doing, i just find it so boring minsan nakaka stress kasi may araw na madaming tangang callers... oh yes! am back to taking calls again. pero my new group's so cool. laging may lakad, inom, kulitan.... super bonding kami ng mga batch mates ko. and medyo normal ang life ko cuz my shift's in the morning. may bago akong crush. who's so nice naman. un lang tulog na ako. maaga pa work ko bukas =)

need to smile

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am no longer young.
am always stressed out of nothing
i feel useless which i really am so it's just sinking i guess.. the thought.
i need to let go of my negative side.
but how? nah i may know the answer however i just simply ignore it.
i find it weird.
i need to let go of all the negative thinggies that i have inside and smile.
this entry is pointless like me.