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am no longer young.
am always stressed out of nothing
i feel useless which i really am so it's just sinking i guess.. the thought.
i need to let go of my negative side.
but how? nah i may know the answer however i just simply ignore it.
i find it weird.
i need to let go of all the negative thinggies that i have inside and smile.
this entry is pointless like me.

my life

what do i really want? am i really happy with what i have now? how can i change the way my life is going right now?
there is a certain path that i want to go this year. i dont know how to get to that path but i will do my best to reach that and walk into it. for i know that once i walk on it, my life will may not be the best thing in the world but i will feel the happiness i have been looking for.