all messed up.

nah... nothing.
i dont have anything in my mind that i want to write
my brain's blank right now
i just want to heard the keyboard
see words in the screen
blogspot's been blocked in the office
so whenever i dont feel good and i wanted to write all the shit in my blog... i can't
my sentiments. my "kabaduyan" ...they'll just be stucked in my lil ass and be converted into
stinky farts!
talked to ge just awhile ago
gosh how i miss the big fat guy
how i wish he's here
to balance me.
hervee's here but were both so preoccupied that we dont have time to bond
i dont wanna force the guy to spend time with me
he got his own stuff to deal with.
i miss alot of people.
i have been enjoying the comfort of my lil room lately
i feel so eager going home and the idea of going to the office irritates me. alot.
i maybe really hating my job that much
i cant see any growth any achievements or anything nice anymore
blasted.
is this what single life is?
no boyfriend to drive to insanity
no dates
no arguments
just plain me.
i argue with myself.
alot
hmp.
i got this small lump down there somewhere that i can feel
but am scared to face the truth that it might be some dangerous stuff.
hmmm. am wrong. my mind is not blank. it's all messed up.
i cannot gather my thoughts.
or i refuse to.
am not suppose to have this load of angst inside me.
there's one person whom i know have the right to carry loads and loads of angst.
sonny.
hehehe.
i think i need to read more about cyst and cancer.
scary?. maybe. it's in my boom boom... not inside it but in the big fatty area of my boom boom.
that this hard lump exist.
enough.
gotta sleep.