Good bye

i cant think of any reason why you have betrayed me
i cant think of any reason why you have lied to me
i cant think of any reason why me of all people...

we could have not ended things this way
i could have given you that space of forgiveness in my heart
i could have told you how big that space is

i also have lied to myself
alot of times
i also made reasons for myself for the things that has happend between us
reasons to justify the faulty things we have made

it has not just been tainted
the friendship didnt just been shattered
i was shattered as well

you maybe ashamed to admit it to me that you have done something wrong
but if you said i am your friend
you should have known that i will accept whatever reasons you will give me
as long as you will say sorry

you need not to admit it to other people
you need to admit it to me directly
you need not to make any stories up

i am shattered
not just of what had happend
but of my actions

i... when lovin g a friend, treasure's it like my life
when a friend do me wrong.. i give chances
as long as they say sorry
i...also say sorry if i do something wrong

you... have not
you... are planning
you... are too late

remember ... that once i love a friend i love them the way i love my life
... like my family
... like jewels.. it treasure them

but ... then again
i am as short minded as anyone can be...
so goodbye

i will accept your sorry but that will not mean i forgive you
all of your hard work will be gone
and i dont care
i am no longer saddened for i know that sorry you will say to me is not from your heart
it is well planned

you know how bad i can be right? but this is not simply being bad
this is simply me... asking for justice
for the wrong doing that happened to me

good bye... stranger



it's tainted... i wont hold on it n'more.. am afraid it might cut deep