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sitting alone in a park
she was thinking about things around her
trying to close her self out from the world outside
trying not to exist

wonderin' why all of a sudden
she felt the need to let go
to be a persona non grata...numb...from everything
is she sad? because she's alone...because she can not have somebody to hold on to
specially now that she can feel that she is drowning..drowning from sorrows..sorrows of unknown things..need to search for what are those...


sensitive...yes she is extra sentive nowadays
she can feel that someone out there still loves her
but that someone knows that cannot be
it still hurts her to feel that..but then she stops
and thinks..maybe i am just hallucinating..maybe i am just confused
maybe i am the one who is still holdin on

but no...she tells herself...am sure of that, that i have long trashed that feeling
violently trashed it because she wanted to feel the pain till it kills the feeling
and that part of her...dead can't feel anything anymore once they're dead so she did put it to death...

she wanted to start over again but then how? she wonders
how the hell can i start over..she tells herself

she just wanted to simply shut herself off from the world
leave things behind
if she can't do that...blowing a couple of strands of hair on her face...
i might just shout...shout till my last breath says goodbye
and sanity leaves and closes the door....she can hear herself saying

..she wanted not to die but just to simply forever looking at horizon till it blinds her
pity on her...she's alone, confuse and in pain
..there's no hand for her to reach on
...there's no body beside her to make her feel the warmth
...there's no soul for her to search
...she's alone and nothing







...there are things that are more horrible than death...like being alone

galing...cheap

grabe! when i saw you do your thing..you're like sh!t galing!...
ironic cuz someone youre someone special is there also in the crowd
watching...sad....
sad..sad...sad me...haaaaaaay
but then before that...eating there with you
just you and me
cheap!! blah! but i dont care
i like you
how i wish you cant see me
...i can kiss you anytime
...hug you when i want
...hold you hand
also cant hear me so that i can shout how much i like you
...learned my lesson well not take somebody's someone
..so..i'll just keep on wishing that she'll leave you one day and you'll be all mine
oooppppsss ...i also need to wish that you'll get to notice me after she leaves you


thinkingof you makes me feel queezy

blah

Love is never easy, butIt turns life into song.
There is no bit of circumstance
That love cannot transform.
There is no weary moment
Of anger or despair
That love cannot convert to grace
And render whole and fair.
How passionate the paradise
That comes from knowing well
That someone in your happiness
Finds pleasure for himself.
How sweet the gift of giving to
Someone who gives to you,
A selflessness that gives to self
More self than self is due.
With all the searing madness ofThe world from day to day,
And all the dreary sadness that
No joy can take away,
There is one truth more beautifulThan anyone can bear:
That two can trust that when they turn
They'll find the other there.