for my dad

I am what people call an "unica hija", the first child and the only girl. my dad considers me a gift cuz he doesnt have any girl sibling and am so close to him, although my mumsie is my bestfriend and my brothers are my barkada. my dad was able to take care of me when i was still small but because were not rich and my parents wants to give the world to us, when i was three, he went to work abroad, first was to saudi, he would go home once a year then will stay with us for like a month which we consider lucky us or just a week. then after 5 years of going out, my parents decided to go home to mumsie's province, bacolod, and just put up a small business, we had then a small rice store but after three years before edsa 1, fire ate up our business... we didnt have any choice then but to go back to manila and for dad to go abroad, this time off to the land of milk and honey and lotsa dumb people (whahahha). he worked for disney world's luxury ship, "the big red boat", as a chief butcher, he'd go home to us once a year a again and this time were lucky if he stays with us for 2weeks. he do spoils me, educated and sent me good school, gave me material stuff, my classmates then even tease me, what manel wants manel gets. happy? me? yes i am somehow, but i do sometimes wish that i do have a complete family, complete in the sense that my mum, dad, brothers are there everytime i go home... that when someone courts me then i got this dad who can bully the guy and tell him not to hurt my li'l girl, that when someone breaks my heart i can go home crying and that i can cry on his shoulders, not just cry but whail my heart out till i get tired and fell asleep. i know he tries to see to it that he's there at every significant occassion in my life like my first js prom, though he missed my debut. he did called, yes, i know he can feel that his li'l girl misses him alot. i cant remember how many xmas's that we missed having him with us. it's been five years now since he last went home, he do calls us up, we do send text messages once in awhile, he is still the best provider ever materially but still i know that he is aware that we are longing for him to be with us so much and that how he wish that were still li'l kids... corny it may sound but while doing this one, my eyes are in tears. miss you dad...soooooooo much!